The Alchemy of Anger: From Blind Rage to Embodied Power

For most of my life, I misunderstood anger.

It felt like an intruder—too loud, too much, too dangerous. Something to silence, or worse, numb. But over time, especially through Dearmouring work and body-based exploration, I discovered that anger isn’t the enemy—it’s a fire, and fire is sacred.

This is my story of how I transformed anger—from unconscious outbursts and internal destruction to conscious power and fierce protection. It’s also a story about fire—not the destructive wildfire of rage, but the sacred flame of clarity, courage, and truth.

Blind Rage: When the Fire Burns Unchecked

I call my teenage shadow self Rogi. He showed up when I was hurt, unheld, and powerless. He raged not because he wanted destruction, but because he didn’t know how else to protect what felt tender inside.

Rogi was full of blind rage—fire without focus. The kind of heat that scorched everything in its path: relationships, health, creativity. His fury was full of stories like “I’m always left behind,” “No one listens to me,” “I’ll show them.”

The physical signs were clear:

• Short breath

• Hunched shoulders

• Clenched jaw

• soar back and neck

• Tension in my belly, fists, and chest

And emotionally? I was disconnected—from others, from my body, from my truth.

But through Dearmouring, I began to witness Rogi—not just as a problem, but as a part of me calling out for support, safety, and sovereignty.

Fire as Teacher: The Elemental Nature of Anger

In the world of Dearmouring, we often work with the elements as energetic guides. Fire is the element most intimately connected to anger, but also to transformation, power, and will.

Fire has four primary qualities:

• Heat: the emotional intensity, the “charge” of anger

• Light: the clarity that comes when truth is revealed

• Movement: the drive to change, act, defend, or protect

• Transformation: the ability to burn away what no longer serves

In its unconscious form, fire can be overwhelming, even dangerous. But in its sacred, embodied form, fire becomes the force that:

• Burns through lies

• Lights up boundaries

• Purifies trauma

• Ignites personal truth

Dearmouring taught me that the goal isn’t to extinguish fire, but to tend it wisely. Fire is not a mistake in the body—it’s a messenger.

From Rage to Ritual: Emotional Alchemy Through the Body

The shift began when I stopped making anger the villain and started giving it a ritual container.

Instead of imploding (or exploding), I began moving the fire consciously:

• Breathwork to soften and regulate the nervous system

• Silent screaming into pillows to release stored charge

• Dancing—wild, barefoot, sweating—to let the fire move without words

• Cold plunges to balance the heat with grounded stillness

• Journaling to track the deeper “why” underneath the reaction

These practices, especially in the first Dearmouring sessions, allowed the body to speak. To shake. To scream. To cry. To burn.

And then... to accept, to release.

What was left wasn’t rage. It was clarity. A fierce, warm knowing of what I stand for.

The Wisdom of Conscious Anger

As I met my anger with awareness, I realized it wasn’t random—it was a response to misalignment.

Anger taught me:

• Where I needed boundaries

• Where I’d betrayed my own truth

• Where I was giving away power to stay accepted

• Where I hadn’t been heard, even by myself

When I began to own my anger, I also began to own my voice:

• “This doesn’t work for me.”

• “I need more space.”

• “I’m not available for that kind of dynamic.”

Suddenly, the same fire that once burned me was now fueling transformation—in relationships, in work, and most importantly, in how I treated myself.

Dearmouring as Alchemy

Dearmouring isn’t just bodywork. It’s emotional alchemy. It’s elemental. It’s ritual.

Anger often shows up during sessions—hidden in the tissue, in the breath, in the heat of the body, the clenched jaws, soar back or in the held fists. And when space is created for it to move, not dominate, something sacred happens:

🔥 Fire burns the lies we tell ourselves.
🔥 Fire exposes where we’ve collapsed our boundaries.
🔥 Fire reclaims the parts of us that feel “too much.”
🔥 Fire says: I matter. My truth matters.

This is not blind rage. This is conscious anger—rooted, centered, embodied. And it is one of the most healing energies I’ve ever encountered.

Final Thoughts: Becoming the Flame, Not the Forest Fire

I no longer fear my anger. I revere it.

I don’t let it drive the car, but I let it sit in the passenger seat and guide me when something’s off. I use it as a compass, not a weapon.

Anger, when honored, is a form of sacred fire. It doesn’t destroy—it purifies. And in the world of emotional healing and body-based work, it is one of our greatest teachers. Anger is a motivator. It purifies through your whole energetic field and brings clarity.

If you’ve been at war with your fire, maybe it’s time to shift. Tend it. Dance with it. Let it show you what’s ready to change.

You are not too much. Your fire is not too much.

You are simply learning how to burn without burning out.

Becoming the observer, standing in your own fire, not acting on it or been thrown around. Just feel and sense it and let it teach you what is NOT aligned with your Truth

🔥 If this speaks to you, I invite you to explore your own fire. Through movement. Through stillness. Through sound. Through silence. It’s time to reclaim the heat that was never meant to hurt you—but to awaken you. 🔥